Have mercy! It’s been too long.
We’ve arrived. That’s what the friendly GPS lady said upon pulling into our new home here in Oklahoma…”You have arrived.”
I felt anything but like I had arrived. I was tired, too tired. And, a little sad even. “It’s a fresh start. A new adventure” so many were saying, but in my heart of hearts I was apprehensive and even fearful.
So new. So strange. Yes. A little scary.
And that brings me to today’s link up at (in)courage…Friendship On Purpose.
I have choices. To spend my time pining for what could have been, should have been. Pining for the loss of community. Hostile at the thought of starting over, again. Or, I can embrace God’s plan with enthusiasm and gratefulness. I can acknowledge in my heart and with my feet and hands that—
“I don’t think the way you think.
The way you work isn’t the way I work.”
“For as the sky soars high above earth,
so the way I work surpasses the way you work,
and the way I think is beyond the way you think.
Just as rain and snow descend from the skies
and don’t go back until they’ve watered the earth,
Doing their work of making things grow and blossom,
producing seed for farmers and food for the hungry,
So will the words that come out of my mouth
not come back empty-handed.
They’ll do the work I sent them to do,
they’ll complete the assignment I gave them.“
Before you begin to think, “She’s stronger than I am, I could never do that.” Me too. I’m not strong. I can’t do it. I can’t be encouraged 24/7. I can’t make the right choices every day. I can’t help but get down and want to give up. But Christ in me says different things about me. Different than I even believe about myself. So as I cry out to Him, He changes me. He changes my mood. My outlook.
So I stepped out my front door, on purpose. I hung out in my front yard, on purpose. I go to the pool with my kids, on purpose. I make eye contact, on purpose.
I choose to be here, in new community as His hands and His feet. I choose to forget past hurts while Christ does healing work in my heart. I choose to forget now, so I can remember later. Sometimes, you have to do that. You have to forget so you can remember.
Her name is Courtney. She’s the start of new community.